Friday, October 25, 2013

unspeakable joy

dearest augie catie
this time four years ago (it's 947pm on 10/25), i was probably still upset that zea's was out of pumpkin cheesecake when we all went to dinner.  your grandparents and aunts and uncles were in town to welcome you to the world the next morning and if you remember anything about your life in mobile, which i feel certain you won't remember much, it is that it rained...a lot.  we were going to have dinner on the causeway but it was raining; remind me to tell you the time we braved a horrible thunderstorm for shashe's 50th birthday; it was over a year before you were born but fresh in our minds that felix's parking lot floods so we chose zea's.  there were very few days during any of my pregnancies that i didn't end with dessert and i was beside myself with the thought of the pumpkin cheesecake on the menu.  if you are wondering if this post is about cheesecake or you, give me just another second.  we all had a lovely dinner and when i ordered my cheesecake, the waiter told me they were out....he obviously missed my extremely large belly and the fact that i REALLY needed a slice.  oh well...been dreaming about pumpkin cheesecake for 4 years now. 
but that next morning, i couldn't have been thinking less about the darn cheesecake! i couldn't wait to meet you; your daddy and i were so excited!  but so relaxed at the same time; dr carpenter and i talked football on the way to the delivery room. my nurse, same one i had for hadley, took guesses about your weight; i guessed exactly.  you were 8lb of love; another ounce would have been more than i could handle. 
your very first picture
nurse frannie showing you off, through the nursery window, after your first bath
                  holding daddy's hand                            possibly my most treasured picture from that day
first birthday

second birthday; such a precious little sister

third birthday
you fill each day with such joy, audrey! i simply can't put it into words for you; but i'll keep trying until one day you are the momma and all in one instant, you will understand why shashe still calls me her baby and i am mid way through my 30's.  i am beyond blessed to be your mother.  God really out did himself with this blessing.  you love big, baby girl. sometimes i am beyond exhausted by the time i am tucking you in at night but there is always time for one of your "hugs and kisses"...always. i can't imagine a day without that fabulous smile and precious personality.  yesterday after we dropped hadley at school, you made up a few stories for me and wanted me to do the same for first one started out "once upon a time there were two sisters; mallory and audrey"... you interrupted me and requested to not only be named ariel but you were apparently a princess; not just a girl. your brain moves faster than i can keep up with.  we are constantly in stitches; but i have to make sure you know i am laughing with you and not at you because, just like your momma, you wear it all on your sleeve sweet girl.  i love you.
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Tuesday, August 6, 2013

my precious kindergartener

Sweetest Hadley,
I am a loss for words much of the time lately; don't ask your daddy about that as his opinion might not be the same.  But this past nearly 2 years has been a whirlwind and I find myself "thinking" more than is typical for me and so I talk a little bit less.  I believe it was August 7, 2011 we found out we were starting down the current path of this journey we are on. In other words, that was the day we found out I was pregnant with Mallory and we would be moving to Meridian.  Yes; that is right...two life changing events presented themselves within 45 minutes of one another.  Always remember God is so good and never forget He has a sense of humor.  
The move to Meridian meant you would be going to full day school once 5k hit; not the sweet little half day I am used to.  And no longer would you be in the cute little bubble of your church school with 10ish students in your class.  No...5k in Meridian meant full day school with 21 other sweet 5 year olds. It's the real world!  I was ready to come and get you by lunch time; you have just been gone far too long and my heart misses you so.
But baby girl, you were made for learning.  You are the first child of two first children; I have spent years trying to mellow and tone down my type a tendencies and your daddy is an engineer. Need I say more?  You embody it; you LOVE school.  So leaving you this morning was hard but I know you are having the time of your little 5 year old life!  I didn't cry and neither did you.  Though I did go back to your class after dropping you off so I could have daddy take our picture; I forgot the first time...guess I was nervous afterall.  I fully expect to cry when I drop you off for college though.  Because that will be all together different from this morning.
I always wanted to stay home with my babies; your daddy was convinced I'd be bored and need to go back to work and I wondered myself if I could do it.  You are the first of my three beautiful, inside and out, blessings and I am so proud to call you my daughter.  
I miss you terribly while you are away but Hadley, I am so proud of the wonderfully sweet and super smart girl you have become.  Continue to consider everyone your friend and let your heart be bigger than you are.  You are in "the big girl world now" and I know your being there will make it a better place!  So I am going to do my best to share you. 
Driving home from school and listening to you tell me all about your day, my heart was so full...I swear it physically hurt.  But that is what your daddy would say "hurts so bad, it feels good".  I've always laughed at him when he says that but I think I now know what he means.
All my love,
so excited!
pink toms make a uniform fun! and who doesn't love that missing tooth?

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Friday, April 5, 2013

the year in pictures

vague title, isn't it. you didn't know what i might be up to. lately, i can't get over how much my girls are daily looking different. ok maybe daily is a bit of a stretch for hadley and audrey but not mallory. they change and grow so stinking fast!

so as the biggest birthday of all, her first one, approaches i wanted to put 12 months of changing faces in one place for me to stare at. and i know you grandparents will sit and stare too. for the rest of you...just gratuitious pictures of my sweet baby girl!

black and white doesn't do most of these pictures justice; have you seen her blue/gray eyes? mesmerizing. i know i am her mother and all but this is my first blue eyed baby and they are the color that hadley and audrey had as newborns; slate... watch her be one of those babies that changes eye color at 2 years old! for now, though, i am mesmerized by those baby blues.

and by the looks of that last picture, it is high time to put a bow in someone's hair!
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Wednesday, April 3, 2013

happy birthday sweet girl

how did my sweet and fabulous first born turn 5?  it must have been while i wasn't looking...which is one of the better things that happens around here while i have my back turned.  only the good Lord really knows what those two are really up to when i am not looking.  she has a huge heart and wears it all on her sleeve; it will be the life and death of that little red head.  i am so proud of you hadley and can't wait to see what God has in store for you.  i had no idea how you would change my life and i know you will continue to amaze me.  i love you hadley hoo!  
 pictures from her party at Dentzel Carousel
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Sunday, March 31, 2013

Happy Easter!

Christ our Lord is risen today! i hope you are having a wonderful time celebrating this most blessed day of the year! i have enjoyed a laid back day with this crew.

hate i've been such a stranger...just realized i haven't posted since november.  that is just kind of sad...things are busy around here! but i will try to play catch up a bit; i was just looking at one of the "recent posts" (from our beach trip last fall so it isn't exactly recent!) but my how my girls are growing....definitely need to catch up!  mallory turns 1 in less than two weeks so i have some sewing up my sleeve and enough things to keep me busy but i will have to add the blog to my "to do list" and see what ground i can make up.  much love and HAPPY EASTER! 
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